What is it about fear that most people seem to enjoy? Roller coasters, scary movies, haunted houses, all of which are greatly enjoyed by most people (though I must emphasize that they aren't for everyone). And then there's those who love to scare the complete and utter shit out of themselves by placing themselves in situations in which they can be killed. People who enjoy sky diving, base jumping, fist fighting, and visiting places which are genuinely haunted. Is it the adrenaline? Or just the suspense of not knowing if this is the time when they don't make it out alive?
I've found that I enjoy being scared. Or maybe not exactly scared, but... eh, it's difficult to explain. I've been listening to this one particular song alot, called A Stray Child by Akira Yamaoka. One of the instrumentals sounds eerily like an air raid siren. And I like it. Not just the melody, but the raw emotion I get from it. And I guess it is very similar to fear, but I know I'm not in danger. I'm listening to it this second, and I feel energized somehow. Like the fight or flight response is in full swing. I can feel my blood as it courses through my veins. I can feel the sweat as it rises to the top of my skin. The scene that is painted in my mind by this music is... indescribable. And I suppose this time, Terror is the perfect word to describe my mood at the moment.